The struggle is REAL

Everyone always says, “it’s all about the love,” but when I tried that phrase on my parents they literally laughed in my face. Now to this very day my dad still disagrees with my beliefs and my mom has slowly come to understand where I am coming from… but it was a long hard ride. When I got kicked out of PCC (that story is in my first post) they began to say how I could not possibly be gay because I have always “liked boys.” I mean, has anyone’s parents said that to them before? I mean yes, I dated guys in high school and beginning of college… but does that make one not truly “Gay?” I mean I know the terms out there for those girls who have never been with a guy, but unfortunately, I grew up believing that loving someone of the same gender was the worst thing to do.

Honestly, I didn’t even know someone could do such a thing. Anyways, fast forward to being at PCC. Now if anyone has heard the horror stories I am a living witness to tell you that they are all true. I mean, when I got kicked out I remember standing in Walmart in JEANS (so ungodly right) and thinking that I have haven’t been out in public in PANTS in 4 years. Sad right?! And although it took me a long time to work through my judgment and hurt against those who kicked me out, I do believe that everything happens for a reason. I mean, I found my first serious girlfriend there. Yes, we hid it for 2 years but did a super great job at it (so ironic right?). We each believed in the one and only true God, and that we each needed to believe that we are sinners and to trust the Lord with our hearts and be Saved by the one who died and rose again for the world.

Don’t get me wrong, I believe that with my whole heart and that will never change. But her and I struggled with the whole girl and girl thing for while. Through prayer and devotion, we each come to the realization that the Lord loves every single one of us, and why hide our love for each other when the purpose for us is to share Jesus’ love to those around us?

I have come to the acceptance that there are many many many out there who will agree to disagree, or just hate me for believing what I do. (My parents included). But we only have one life, one chance to influence those for the better, one life to be happy.

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